OBSESSION/COMPULSION

For fucks sake, I have been obsessed with my bathroom cabinet door shutting perfectly and have compulsively opened and shut it for the past 14 hours. How the hell is this even justifiable to someone without retardation? I am so sick and tired of these random games my mind plays on me. I'm still scared to death of the dark and now I find myself obsessively thinking someone is under the bed waiting to kill me. I wish I could blame this ridiculousness on schizophrenia, but alas, I don't have that disorder. How can I stay stuck on something for 14 hours and then try and function normally so others won't think I am a total spaz? If there was a wonder drug I would gladly take it. I also am so tired of people telling me that my condition can be cured. If one more person tells me that all I need is real prayer I think I will puke. Look, I have prayed about this and guess what......I'M UP FOR 14 HOURS TRYING TO SHUT A GODDAMN BATHROOM CABINET PERFECTLY.